What is rock bottom?

Is rock bottom a place? I feel as if maybe I am there and yet I see hope on the horizen[did i spell, never mind i didn't]. I am not kidding when I repeat the news about the sore throat from hell! I have now had it since March 31st. Ice chips, milk, soup, things to suck on for troat irritation all HURT!!!!! My wonderful dr. looked at me again, said and I " ", I just don't know what to do next! Such a calming feeling came over me....NOT!!!!! Then he ask if I thought I might be depressed? WHAT??????? HELLO!!!!!! Could you not test me for strep, or meningitis, or dengy fever or polio???? Come on, I mean he is the one paying off medical school I hope. He ackownledges that my throat is redder than any he's ever seen...WOOOHOOO! He ask if I thought I could get into an ENT [ears, nose and throat specialist?] Again, Hello....could you like call and get me into one? OH MY WORD.......why did my old dr. retire? Why are people eating pizza? Why am I on the computer instead of in my bed feeling like I hit rock bottom? Who really gives a crap? I am just sick and if I don't die before next Thursday I got myself in to see and ENT an hour away from Podunk America. Before you ask, I have been on steriods since March 30th, had 3 different antibiotics, and 3 shots. So if there is a rock bottom I think I am sitting on it and of course there is only one way to look [no not under it], although I may have to look there before this is all said and done. I have lost that loving feeling....LOL....and my blog has become my way of whining......I hate whining! Well, I can't talk out loud so I gotta do my yellin' with my fingers. Ya know what I'm saying? It's time to put more vinegar and alcohol in my ears to keep them from hurting so bad......yep, old rememdy but hey right now it's helps for a few minutes. Do you have a rock bottom? Ever been there? Does it go away and come back anothter day? In the scheme of life I know God has more to do then listen to me complain but I Love Him all the more because He loves me enough to let me. God Bless you on your journey in life and tell me about your rock bottom if you have had one or more. I know they come in all sizes, depths, ranges and colors...at least in my illness I envision it that way. I may take some tylenol while I'm up anyway. I am then going to put in White Christmas and fall asleep dancing the afternoon away with Danny Kaye! Hugs from a germ ridden, sicko, think if i die i will feel better cj aka momma

I just thought I was sick

Man, I am so sick right now it is beyond words!!!!!My throat feels like there are razor blades slideing up and down. Of course this only hurts when I cough [consitantly] or swallow. Good Night Miss Maudy, I havn't been able to talk for about 6 days now, not hardly even a whisper. I have tried cough med., honey and tea, straight honey, throat lozenges[sp] and salt water gargle. Any body got any ideas? VooDoo or a doctor you can recommend? On the up side AT&T did not go on strike, PRAISE GOD!!!!!!! Cowboy will get to work but without a signed contract....that is still a great sign. This is such a lame post but I am miserable, tired of tv, can't focus to read, to sick to sew, and I needed to reach out without giving anyone my germs. Thank you for reading, passing by on your journey and if you want to complain about anything even off the wall complaining go for it on my comments. We will just get this UGLY out of our system and move on to more important things. Like shopping for bargins, shoe talk, grandbabies....etc. Hugs and Hope cj aka nannie

Miss me?

Well writing about the flu just made it worse.....did I think it was done, uh, yea!!! Well, NO it wasn't... Monday I ended up in the hospital from Hell [no not the one in Lawton] but closer to 3rd world country]. I now have exassberated asthama/bronchitis with a touch of pnem./double ear infection just to roung off how swell I feel. To sick to go any further than my bed but will go on and on and on and on about how much fun I had later. Stay well, Stay out of any small country hospitals and never ever go unless you are turning blue or dead. Till later. I go to bed now. Hugs, love and Thank God for Darvacet!!!!! momma aka cj aka ect.......

FLU SHOT TO GET OR NOT!

Let's just say I get the flu shot every year, and yet once again I have "A MILD CASE OF THE FLU"!!!!! The doctor assures me I would be so much worse if I hadn't recieved the shot. Oh really.....where was he Wed.nite as I rolled around on my bed, the floor, every chair I could get my fluffy little self into? Where was he when the fever was 103 degrees at 2am. Where was he when I lay on the bathroom floor begging Cowboy to "Kill me now before it gets worse".....um being the gentleman he has always been he said "Oh, let's wait till sun up you may change your mind"LOL!!!!! He never gets the flu shot, never gets the flu. He may be on to something.ya think? Do yall get flu shots? I mean yes, I have a low immune system due to Fibromyalgia,Asthma/Bronchitis and am clumsy[ wait I just threw in the clumsey part]. Okay to be honest I might fall a few times every year but I try and keep those moments on the farm. Seriouslly, Flu shot or Not to Flu shot that is the question. Not like will you marry me type question, or would you like to have an elephant sit on your head. But still an important question none the less. Okay it's time for pills,liquid, and hopefully some sleep after none for two days. Hugs and Love cj aka momma aka carla aka nannie not listed in any partifular order.LOL

What in the Sam Hill?

Lately I have found some new blogs about healthy and very ill babies born. I have read their mothers and sometimes daddies blogs asking for prayer. I just got through reading one of my favorites "Jenna's Journey". Her baby was in NICU for a month, her husband is now sick and in the hospital. She is trying to stay strong and she believes in prayer. So what's my point? What in the Sam Hill are people thinking when they leave her a nasty comment. That is correct...a comment blameing her for her sons condition [heart]. What makes a person attack someone they don't even know in "The REAL world"? Blogging is a way to write what's going on in your life, kinda like an open heart. When I blog I write what's in my heart, I don't filter, I just write what I'm feeling and it sets me free. I love sharing about my children and grandchildren. Comments like the one Jenna recieved hurt her and it made me ANGRY. NOT MANY THINGS MAKE ME ANGRY BUT THAT MADE ME ANGRY! The person didn't even have the wa-hoos to sign their name. Unbelieveable!!!!!! I was taught that if you can't say something nice, then keep your mouth shut. In this case just move on to a blog that makes you happy. PLEASE, don't write your opinion on someones life just because you are unhappy with yourself. A Blog is getting things off your chest, or Praiseing God, or asking for prayer,and it's a quick way to share with family and friends what's new with YOU.It's better than email. Okay, all better now. Pray for Jenna and Chris and baby Brayden. It's okay that we don't know them, God does! Hugs and Love cj

Little arms

As I stood in the kitchen late Wednesday getting my coffee maker to heat up some water for cocoa, a pair of little arms softly came around my legs from behind. It was my 3 yr old grandson Jax. This was our first time to spend a day together and I wasn't sure how it would go. Mommy was an little over an hour away at work and daddy was in Tenn. The little arms said it all!!!!! I turned around, picked him up and we hugged for several minutes. I said "Jaxon I love you" and he said "I love you Annie". Yes Boo calls me Nannie and Ella Grace is starting to say Nan but to have Annie as a name picked by this adorable little guy melts me every time I hear it. We watched a movie [several times, same movie]as we played in the floor, wrestled, played super heros and ate popcorn, carrot sticks, p-nut butter sandwiches, m&m's,and drank water. He kills me when I ask if he wants coolaid, milk, juice,coffee [just kidding about the coffee], and he tells me "No, just water". He minded everything I ask of him even in Wally World where I insisted on getting him an early birthday present. I really did insist. He learned that when I say Jax "Red Light" it means STOP and "Green Light" means go. Here on the farm if you let him outside he is at the other end of the place before I can say wait. He doesn't know about snakes, skunks with rabies, dogs dumped off and harmful things so I came up with this game to help ME and Him. He loved it and it worked like a charm. Yesterday all of Nannies adventures for the past week caught up with her and she slept all day. Third person makes it sound so much better than if I had slept all day, ya think? I miss them all today. Each child grown or grand are special to me and I love them with all my heart and soul. I treasure the sweet moments, like little arms around my legs. No words, just little arms. Hugs and love nannie, aka cj aka momma

On The Road Again

OH MY WORD, I was on the road almost all day. I hate days like this where it's get in the car, drive, get out of the car, get in the car, drive..........see where I'm going? LOL!!!!!! I took Boo home, stopped to pick up my JC Penny order, stopped to feed Memaw and Boo, got Boo home, left memaws purse at Boos house, went back to get it, drove in breakneck traffic in NORMAN to drive the hour back home,and it took half the day. I am getting tooooooooo old for all this running around. Oh I forgot to mention.......in the morning I am driving memaw home [an hour drive] turn around and drive back home then I am picking up Jax in Tri City an hour in the opposite direction and then back home again. I need to get out my Willie Nelson cd and play "On The Road Again" over and over and .........!!!!!I am going to bed at 7 tonite, yea, right.LOL!!!! Jax, nannie is comeing to get you and we are gonna have the best, greatest, funniest sleepover of all times. Yep, my sleep will be over for one night at least because a three year old tosses and turns and flips and flops and that is why it is called a sleep over.LOL!!!!! I wouldn't change a thing, okay maybe I'd ask to be a little [a lot] younger. On the road again, YEEEEEHAAAAAAW!!!!!!