What is rock bottom?

Is rock bottom a place? I feel as if maybe I am there and yet I see hope on the horizen[did i spell, never mind i didn't]. I am not kidding when I repeat the news about the sore throat from hell! I have now had it since March 31st. Ice chips, milk, soup, things to suck on for troat irritation all HURT!!!!! My wonderful dr. looked at me again, said and I " ", I just don't know what to do next! Such a calming feeling came over me....NOT!!!!! Then he ask if I thought I might be depressed? WHAT??????? HELLO!!!!!! Could you not test me for strep, or meningitis, or dengy fever or polio???? Come on, I mean he is the one paying off medical school I hope. He ackownledges that my throat is redder than any he's ever seen...WOOOHOOO! He ask if I thought I could get into an ENT [ears, nose and throat specialist?] Again, Hello....could you like call and get me into one? OH MY WORD.......why did my old dr. retire? Why are people eating pizza? Why am I on the computer instead of in my bed feeling like I hit rock bottom? Who really gives a crap? I am just sick and if I don't die before next Thursday I got myself in to see and ENT an hour away from Podunk America. Before you ask, I have been on steriods since March 30th, had 3 different antibiotics, and 3 shots. So if there is a rock bottom I think I am sitting on it and of course there is only one way to look [no not under it], although I may have to look there before this is all said and done. I have lost that loving feeling....LOL....and my blog has become my way of whining......I hate whining! Well, I can't talk out loud so I gotta do my yellin' with my fingers. Ya know what I'm saying? It's time to put more vinegar and alcohol in my ears to keep them from hurting so bad......yep, old rememdy but hey right now it's helps for a few minutes. Do you have a rock bottom? Ever been there? Does it go away and come back anothter day? In the scheme of life I know God has more to do then listen to me complain but I Love Him all the more because He loves me enough to let me. God Bless you on your journey in life and tell me about your rock bottom if you have had one or more. I know they come in all sizes, depths, ranges and colors...at least in my illness I envision it that way. I may take some tylenol while I'm up anyway. I am then going to put in White Christmas and fall asleep dancing the afternoon away with Danny Kaye! Hugs from a germ ridden, sicko, think if i die i will feel better cj aka momma

I just thought I was sick

Man, I am so sick right now it is beyond words!!!!!My throat feels like there are razor blades slideing up and down. Of course this only hurts when I cough [consitantly] or swallow. Good Night Miss Maudy, I havn't been able to talk for about 6 days now, not hardly even a whisper. I have tried cough med., honey and tea, straight honey, throat lozenges[sp] and salt water gargle. Any body got any ideas? VooDoo or a doctor you can recommend? On the up side AT&T did not go on strike, PRAISE GOD!!!!!!! Cowboy will get to work but without a signed contract....that is still a great sign. This is such a lame post but I am miserable, tired of tv, can't focus to read, to sick to sew, and I needed to reach out without giving anyone my germs. Thank you for reading, passing by on your journey and if you want to complain about anything even off the wall complaining go for it on my comments. We will just get this UGLY out of our system and move on to more important things. Like shopping for bargins, shoe talk, grandbabies....etc. Hugs and Hope cj aka nannie

Miss me?

Well writing about the flu just made it worse.....did I think it was done, uh, yea!!! Well, NO it wasn't... Monday I ended up in the hospital from Hell [no not the one in Lawton] but closer to 3rd world country]. I now have exassberated asthama/bronchitis with a touch of pnem./double ear infection just to roung off how swell I feel. To sick to go any further than my bed but will go on and on and on and on about how much fun I had later. Stay well, Stay out of any small country hospitals and never ever go unless you are turning blue or dead. Till later. I go to bed now. Hugs, love and Thank God for Darvacet!!!!! momma aka cj aka ect.......