Boo and a sleepover

As most of you know Boo is my oldest grandaughter [all of 6 yr.] and she is wanting a sleepover which is not a surprise to anyone. We have to have a sleepover at least twice a month or we both get out of sorts. The new part is she has made a list of 25 things to do for Friday night. I told her we would save some for Saturday and she sighed and said "Nannie, you are suppose to make a list of 25 things for Saturday". Do yall remember how OLD I am?????? Oh well, I told PawPaw he gets her from 7am until 9am Saturday morning because I need my sleep. He wanted to know if he needed a list so I said Yes, of course!!!!! He had written 3 things......make her pancakes, watch cartoons, wake up nannie! She is very good to let me sleep til a little before 9 but after that it's head um up move um out {cowboy lingo for go go go].I am soooooo glad she was in kindergarten this year because any time I wanted to go get her on a Thursday or Friday it was fine. Next year I guess I'll have to go see Miss Ella Grace and Miss Lanie Elizabeth. [13 months apart in age] I'm not getting any younger ya know. Boo is already planning for Ella to turn 5 so she can teach her about sleepovers. I hope I last that long, LOL!!!! Well, gotta run just me being me tonite. cj aka nannie

PRAYER REQUEST

Dear friends, family and passerbyers, I am asking for prayers for Miss Amanda right now as she has just lost her grandfather plus she is due to have Lanie Elizabeth in June but has had a few contractions. She is sad and stressed and we have all been there at one time or another. If you are just passing by my blog please have a kind thought as you are on your way. Thank you all. Today is hard......even though I didn't personally know her grandfather I know her daddy and I am sooooooo sad for him. I lost my daddy some 10 years ago and have his picture, dog tags and flag above my computer and it seems like it was just yesterday. When a loved one passes it touches more than just the family. There are people that you don't even know who your loved one touched by example or deed. I like to think of an added star in the sky when someone passes. I am rambling but again, MY BLOG! I write to get the hurt out. My hurt is not equal to my friend but knowing what he and his family are going through just hurts. I can't do or say anything to fix it. I hate not being able to comfort, or have words of wisdom so great that takes their pain away. God is the only one that heals this kind of hurt. I can only sit back and pray which is the best thing. Still I want so badly to help. I will ask again for all of your prayers, thoughts and prayers as you pass by and I know some of you will email but that's not needed for my benifit. I just want you to pray for The Simpson Family including Amanda and Lanie. In Zambia they say "Let God Be The Final Medicine". In Him I know all things will work out but I am still sad for my friends. Just me, Hugs and Love cj aka nannie aka friend aka momma

56

Yep, yesterday was my 56th birthday and I spent it in OKC all day going from one surgeon to another. Remember way back on January 1 when I said no more surgeries!!!! I had 3 last year. Well looks like i am having 2 this year. I feel like I am not really believing it so maybe if i write it here and reread it I will get the idea that "Yep, I am having 2 operations this year"!!!!!! The good news is it isn't my back but my right ankle, and right knee [torn ACL]. Two different doctors and two different hospitals. I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo scared to be put to sleep, not because of dying but because I already have so much scare tissue in my throat from the last 9 surgeries. Again, the good news is it isn't my back!!!!! I hope it is over before Lanie Elizabeth is born so I can help Miss Amanda out. Yes, I still called my daughter-in-love Miss. Only because I called her that when I met her and found out she was going to become a teacher. She is adorable and I love her like my own daughter......I keep forgetting she is not my daughter. I tell people that I have three daughters and three sons and three grandchildren. Really, there will be 4 with Lanie. I count Phillip as a son, and Suzy as a daughter as well as Amanda. God has blessed me soooooooooooooooooooo much and I feel sooooooooooooooo unworthy. I am trying harder to be a better mother-in-love and that is hard when you consider them your children. I am working hard on communicateing better and not giving advice that is truely not needed. Shannon has learned to say "Oh Really" and we laugh and I know that she doesn't need any advice. She doesn't hesitate to call when she really needs me. I think my abandonment issues from childhood cause me to need to be needed. I am trying to work on allowing God to take over and I just take care of me and spoil the grandbabies, not raise them. It really is that much more fun when I don't worry all the time.As usual this was just me being me and getting it in writing. Shout out to Ali and Katie bug and Liz, Hugs and Love cj