What is rock bottom?

Is rock bottom a place? I feel as if maybe I am there and yet I see hope on the horizen[did i spell, never mind i didn't]. I am not kidding when I repeat the news about the sore throat from hell! I have now had it since March 31st. Ice chips, milk, soup, things to suck on for troat irritation all HURT!!!!! My wonderful dr. looked at me again, said and I " ", I just don't know what to do next! Such a calming feeling came over me....NOT!!!!! Then he ask if I thought I might be depressed? WHAT??????? HELLO!!!!!! Could you not test me for strep, or meningitis, or dengy fever or polio???? Come on, I mean he is the one paying off medical school I hope. He ackownledges that my throat is redder than any he's ever seen...WOOOHOOO! He ask if I thought I could get into an ENT [ears, nose and throat specialist?] Again, Hello....could you like call and get me into one? OH MY WORD.......why did my old dr. retire? Why are people eating pizza? Why am I on the computer instead of in my bed feeling like I hit rock bottom? Who really gives a crap? I am just sick and if I don't die before next Thursday I got myself in to see and ENT an hour away from Podunk America. Before you ask, I have been on steriods since March 30th, had 3 different antibiotics, and 3 shots. So if there is a rock bottom I think I am sitting on it and of course there is only one way to look [no not under it], although I may have to look there before this is all said and done. I have lost that loving feeling....LOL....and my blog has become my way of whining......I hate whining! Well, I can't talk out loud so I gotta do my yellin' with my fingers. Ya know what I'm saying? It's time to put more vinegar and alcohol in my ears to keep them from hurting so bad......yep, old rememdy but hey right now it's helps for a few minutes. Do you have a rock bottom? Ever been there? Does it go away and come back anothter day? In the scheme of life I know God has more to do then listen to me complain but I Love Him all the more because He loves me enough to let me. God Bless you on your journey in life and tell me about your rock bottom if you have had one or more. I know they come in all sizes, depths, ranges and colors...at least in my illness I envision it that way. I may take some tylenol while I'm up anyway. I am then going to put in White Christmas and fall asleep dancing the afternoon away with Danny Kaye! Hugs from a germ ridden, sicko, think if i die i will feel better cj aka momma